Wednesday, February 10, 2010

life is like a box of chocolates... never know what you're gonna get.

True that Forrest. True that.

Today while at work I started thinking about how I'm going to be turning 25 this year. Well, I think about it a lot actually. It's not that I think 25 is old, because I don't. It's just that I don't feel like I should be 25.

I was trying to explain this to my co-worker La Cheryl over our joint cubicle wall when suddenly I was bombarded with tons of IM's and shouts from people around the office threatening me with bodily harm for thinking 25 was old (I never said that, just so you know). I vowed to all of them that I would never have a conversation in the office again if this was the result. Then we all laughed. My ploy worked :0)

Anyway, what I mean by all of this is that I had planned to be at a completely different place in my life when the big 25 hit. I had a 10 year plan darn it! It was a very nice plan that I really, really, really wanted to happen.

According to my plan, I should have been married for 4+ years by now, having finished school with a double major in History and French and a masters in Education. I should be teaching High School students right now. Wowing them with my knowledge of Medieval History and instilling a love of the French language in them just like my French teacher in high school did with me. I should be newly pregnant or at least trying to get pregnant with my first little baby. I should be planning a beautiful life with my growing family.

That ladies and gents is what my life should be like... if plans work the way they're supposed to.

Life however doesn't adhere to plans. Unless of course it's God's plan.

No matter how much I crave that little baby right now or wish for the comfort of a forever love I know that right now, this is where I'm supposed to be. I still have a lot to learn and a lot to work on before I'll be ready for the gifts that Heavenly Father has in store for me. I am so thankful to Him for knowing me better than I know myself.

I'm sure most of you don't know this but I was engaged when I was 18. I was head over heels in love with this man and wanted to spend the rest of my life with him. I was willing to do anything, and I mean anything, to be with him. And I did. I changed who I was. I changed my values for him because he came from a different world. He came from a different lifestyle that he didn't want to give up for me. So I gave up myself for him.

The Spirit told me that I shouldn't be with him. Every single time I saw or spoke to him I always got the clear command "No, don't do this. You should not be doing this".

"Pffft", I thought back, "how do you know what I should be doing? (stupid, I know) I love him. We have such a strong connection and have since the beginning. How could this not be right?"

Luckily, I had a Heavenly Father who cared more about me and my well being than I did. The relationship soon ended. I was crushed but eventually came to the realization that my life would have been horrible had the relationship continued. I cannot even begin to tell you how grateful I am for that divine intervention because, even though I'm not where I wanted to be at this age, I know I am where I'm supposed to be.

I am happy.

I have lived a good life thus far.

A life that I wouldn't trade for the world.

So, even though you never know what you're gonna get with life, at least you know it's gonna be good!

Yeah that was cheesy... yet awesome.


Have I mentioned how baby hungry I am? Yeah, it's getting pretty ridiculous. I wish I lived near more people with babies. Then I could just steal a few for a while like Alexa did.

Tomorrow is the deadline to win some cookies made by yours truly. Just post a comment!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

"I forgot, you're stupid"

I deal with a lot of stupid people.
I know that sounds mean and maybe it is.
Maybe these people are just having stupid moments.
Heaven knows I've had mine but with the sheer number of stupid questions that come in day after day after day it's really hard not to think that people are generally just stupid.

I had terrifyingly stupid moment once.
It's something that I try to forget about just because of how stupid it really was.
Unfortunately, I was reminded of it on Friday when I went to take my car in for it's emissions and safety inspection...

It was a cold day in March of 2009, my car was dead because the battery was so old that the plug thingies (yes, that is the technical term) that hooked onto the battery had corroded and broke into several different pieces. Obviously I couldn't drive my car so I took the day off to have a tow truck take my car to my local dealership to get it fixed.
My mom had left me her car so that I could run errands while my car was being worked on. My appointment was early in the morning, I believe 8 or 8:30 which meant I was in my pajamas. Why? Because I am very fond of them and take a great deal of delight in wearing them, especially on days when I would otherwise be wearing slacks, heels and a button up shirt.
Moving on...
I rode with the tow truck over to the dealership, I checked my car in, left my keys with the office guy and caught a ride back home with one of their shuttle vans. When I was getting out of the van I told the guy not to bother coming back for me since my mom was going to take me once she got off work. As I watched the guy drive off I realized that I had left my keys with the office guy. Not just my car keys but my house keys and my mom's car keys. I also realized that we still hadn't decided on a hiding place for a spare set of house keys.
I was locked out of my house.
In the cold.
In my pajamas.
I called my mom who laughed at me.
Not just laughed but guffawed... for a really long time.
I called my brother who also laughed and told me I was "smart".
After his laughter subsided a little I asked him if there was anyway he or his wife TL could pick me up and take me to mom's work to get her spare set of keys. He asked me why I couldn't just walk there (it's about a mile from our house) and I told him I felt embarrassed walking downtown in my pajamas.
He laughed even more.
I tried not to cry because I felt so so SO stupid.
Especially when everyone was laughing at me.
Then I called my mom's visiting teacher who laughed just a little and said she'd be by to pick me up in a few minutes. I was so grateful to her. Not just because she picked me up but because she didn't laugh at me, at least not when I was within hearing distance.

Now that, ladies and gents is my big stupid moment. What does that have to do with anything? Nothing, but who cares, right?

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The giveaway ends on Thursday at 7:00 PM mountain time.


In retrospect I realized that I could have saved all of that humiliation if I had simply called the dealership and had them come pick me up again.

Evidently the baby picture of my mom in the previous post really isn't my mom. It's a picture of one of her friends from High School. I told her I was leaving on here until she gave me one of her. That was 3 days ago. I don't think she cares too much.

Friday, February 5, 2010

mudder, it's your birthday


You're going to kill me after this especially since I'm posting pictures of you which you have told me several times not to do. Ever. I'd like to take this moment to apologize to you and to remind you that all this was done out of love. Hopefully, that information will persuade you from doing any harm to my being that would result in death. Maiming I can get over, death however not so much...

I wanted to do an ode or a limerick about you but I will leave that to my much more talented and witty brother. With him around I just can't compete.

Oh mudder pie, it is your birthday today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

Quite frankly I have no idea where to start when it come to you. I mean that in a good way. really.

You are a truly amazing woman.

Your life has been one big roller coaster ride. Many ups, many downs and yet you're still a happy, funny, loving person. I'm in awe of you and the woman and mother you are.

I know it was hard, raising three kids by yourself. Heaven knows we were a handful. Well, Nate and Adam were, I was an angel :0) didn't by that huh? damnit....

But you truly did an amazing job raising us. I don't think I have one bad memory from my childhood. never any fights or arguments. Never any time when I felt that I wasn't loved 110%. The older I get the more I realize how blessed I was to be born into this family. To have you as my mother, my best friend. You always allowed us the freedom to be ourselves, to make our own decisions. To discover ourselves. I can't even begin to tell yo how grateful I am for you allowing me the freedom to live and experience life. And, more importantly, to always know that you were right there with me to help whenever needed.

Like I said, you are an amazing woman.

Growing up I always felt like I had the best mom, partially because my friends would tell me exactly that but also because you would point out hot guys to me and then we'd giggle while delighting in their hotness. I mean seriously, how many mothers would do that with their teenage daughter?!

I am also thankful that you never made good on all your threats to kill me, especially when I told that embarrassing story about you to the whole ward on mother's day. You know, the story about how we went camping that one time and I woke up in the middle of the night because I thought I heard a bear roaring and then found out it was just you snoring. Yeah that story. That was funny.

Or how about that one time when I was adamant (extremely adamant) that Southtowne mall was on 90th south and you were like "Oh no it isn't" and I was like "Oh yes it is" and it went on for a while like this until I got really angry and stopped talking to you. Do you remember when I came back a couple weeks later with my head hung down in shame to tell you that you were right and I was wrong. How I had gotten off at the 90th south exit and became lost because Southtowne is actually at the 106th south exit just like you said. You remember how you didn't say "I told you so"? Yeah that just shows how awesome you are. Even though you did have the "I told you so" smirk on your face at least you didn't say the words.

Do you remember all those hundreds and thousands of times we've laughed non stop at the stupidest things? So much fun. So so so much fun!

Here's to you mudder, on your 58th birthday. Hope you like your surprise tonight. I will be taking pictures. Sorry. Don't say I didn't warn you.



Wednesday, February 3, 2010

it's a giveaway!!!

I decided to do a give away because I am in the mood to bake some cookies!
Up for grab are some very muchos delicious chewy white chocolate coconut cookies.
They're good. Like, seriously good!
Don't believe me?
They're so good that Mr. Handsome himself ate like two dozen of them!
True story.

How can you win batch of these delightfully delicious cookies?

Just post a funny/interesting/embarrassing story or factoid about yourself in the comments section! No need to be a follower, this is open to anyone and everyone (so tell your friends!)


Story: My very first date was with a senior at school who I was like, literally Dinner had gone really well (we all got kids meals) and there were no awkward moments between any of us. We had planned to go to a movie but that fell through so instead we decided to go cosmic (black light) bowling. The place was jam packed so we had to wait a few minutes for a lane to open up. While waiting I notice that everyone who walked past us kept giving me really weird looks. I had no idea what was going on so my friend Rainy and I went to the bathroom. While in the bathroom I couldn't see anything wrong with my face, hair, clothes nothing. Weird, right? We walked out of the well lit bathroom back into the black lights where again, people immediately started giving me weird looks. I looked down and lo and behold my bra was glowing through my shirt. Every single detail of the pattern was fully visible for the world (and my date) to see.

Factoid: My eyes were bright blue like the rest of my family until I was 12 when they changed to green. My eyes will change from one color to the other on a regular basis but will normally stay some sort of green unless I get really angry or sad. If that happens then they go straight back to blue.

Giveaway ends Thursday 2/11 at 7:00 PM mountain time.


Monday, February 1, 2010


I realized today that I'm happy.
Like genuinely happy. That hasn't happened for a really long time.
Yes, I have had lots of happy moments but never has my general state of being been a happy one, at least not for the past three years.

Today however I realized that I've changed. I'm not entirely sure what that change was but I finally feel more like my old self.
My happy self.
And I like it!